How do we reconcile these teachings of both present and future-mindedness: let the day be sufficient for the day and be anxious about nothing, but also, a wise builder measures out his resources and plans so to bring his project to completion. Despite the fact that I seem to have accomplished very little with my life by the standards of our culture, I have always been a very passionate and driven man, pushing myself constantly to take on and perfect new projects academic, pastoral, and relational. Those projects, each and every one of them, was a gift I built for my Lord. I knew then, and I still believe now, that even if no one else appreciates my works, they are the verses in the love poem of my soul to God. Still, I can't think of those gifts as collateral for some earned future or even as bribes to buy my way to Glory.
Lately, I feel as if I was so concerned about getting somewhere that I had been forgetting to take time to just be with God. My last relationship was such a gift for many reasons, not least that she took me back to a place of rest with God. In many ways, my love for her was a doorway into a higher sense of God's providence and presence. I never felt closer to the truth about who God really is than I did with her. Even if He says "don't cling to me" for a time, He is eternally a lover.