Submission. I'm thinking about this critique that Christianity induces a state of passivity towards tyranny. Too much forgiveness or too much obedience effectively means being easy to exploit or enslave. It is true to a point. Yet, in the past, Christendom went to war in its own defense, and just war was considered a fair Christian choice. I ask myself if I am willing to kill in defense of the American constitution. Its no Christendom here, but we had, in America, a social structure that honored the psychological and social benefits of Christian practice. And it is, absolutely, under attack again. Likely, the battle will break out from politics into physical violence soon. Not sure what the answer for now. But that's the exterior despotism of the world. How about the interior tyrannies of the flesh: bad moods, falling metabolism, cyclical depressions, circumstantial anxiety, poor health, and/or neural dampening? Does Christianity also sometimes convince me to submit to these states? I think yes. I'm quite certain actually. What is this submission though? It is a faith-based assumption that I don't need to feel good to do what is right. However, it does seem that the Gospel message includes a sense of joy in doing what is right. A mysterious paradox. Accepting suffering, for me, is a way to raise my consciousness out of my flesh and into my spirit. Its only really possible though, at least in the moments of extreme pain, to do this in cooperation with the crucified God. Meditating on the wounds of Christ lifts us into the actual life of God, which is the Spirit Himself. In so doing, He gives life to our mortal bodies also, albeit in His own perfect time.
Happiness. Make money doing what you love? I do believe such a thing is possible, I just think we achieve success and we are given what we desire precisely in the surrender of these ends (success, happiness). Turning our focus to the cultivation of our gifts in service of others is rewarded by the Spirit (even the desire and the effort are rewarding). Maybe its not pleasurable in the way we anticipated, but also, it will be better than we anticipated. What I love to do really depends on what is needed by those I love. I take joy in meeting the needs of the people of God. Now in combination with the paragraph above, I ask myself, what do we need? Clearly God has been showing me this for almost two decades now, and the work is right in front of me. Catholicize and nuptialize the culture through a new renaissance of education. Some criticize my method as too feminine, but I think it is rather balanced, Marian and Josephite, assimilation into the body of Christ which is not ultimately made for this universe. The interaction of logic and love, propelled by relationship and work. Propertarianism is the latest philosophy I am trying to synthesize into my own blueprint. As I am coming to grips with the limitations of my present position, it might be wise to take this next project apart into daily pieces that I can share with you. I think I'll commit to it for my next 30-day session, as a monastic obligation of prayer for a special intention. I'm including you in my prayers! Please do the same for me!